The Dark Side of Being a YouTuber

  • Published: 06 February 2019
  • I've kept this secret for almost a year now, hiding behind a smile in my videos. Little did anyone know I was pushing through one of the hardest moments of my life, but I pushed far enough that now I'm ready to talk about my harassment because nobody else should settle for being treated like this. I hope this can help you in dealing with your own battles. When I say I love you guys, I truly do mean it.


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    *None of the names in the video are related to the real person(s)
    *Please do not go on a search to find out who these people are, that is the opposite of what I wanted this video to do.

    This isn't just about being a YouTuber, it's about being someone that goes against the grain and having to deal with people who will do anything in their power to stop you from achieving your dreams.

    Your "weirdness" is usually your greatest strength. Remember that.

Comments • 13 792

  • Kinetix :3
    Kinetix :3  6 hours back

    they left DNA 🧬 they honestly need to go back to first grade is it funny how my sister who is younger than them realized that 😂😂 I’m dead💀😂😂

    • 1k with no vids challenge

      I want to become a YouTuber but now I’m low key scared 😦

      • Danielle Knox
        Danielle Knox  9 hours back

        22:00 my family buys 4 gallons of milk at once lol, but we also have 8 people in our family and we all love milk lol....


        Lol jk I don’t even know if she lives in America lol

        • ASMR kaykay
          ASMR kaykay  10 hours back

          this is true i’m not famous but my cousins friend which is Jake Paul had used to be stalked.I think. I don’t watch Jake.

          • BTS ARMY
            BTS ARMY  12 hours back

            I'm just curious did you apologized to Michael for believing it was him?

            • ლIts Jadeლ
              ლIts Jadeლ  12 hours back

              for the people who think they left many DNA (lol bts),

              there was probably a group of people who put their "ahem" in the bottle, so it might be difficult to detect the DNA

              • Princesshallie 07
                Princesshallie 07  12 hours back

                at the end when she was talking about how people talk about you and stuff i just got that feeling and started to suck in what she was talking about and in my mind she should really be an influencer

                • Martha Jasmin
                  Martha Jasmin  14 hours back

                  This is my first time watching her and I watched the entire thing and I think she is one of my favorite you tubers now 💙🙏🏽

                  • WookieGacha _24
                    WookieGacha _24  15 hours back

                    This is just disgusting

                    • LeaxX x
                      LeaxX x  15 hours back

                      Okay, I don't want to make videos now..

                      • Ana.forlife Oop
                        Ana.forlife Oop  16 hours back


                        • Ana.forlife Oop
                          Ana.forlife Oop  16 hours back


                          • Rhianna Skye
                            Rhianna Skye  17 hours back

                            Err who the fuck leaves a bottle of sperm outside somebodys door, wtf do they think they would accomplish??? 😂😂
                            So sorry u and your family had to go through that xx

                            • kyler mosny
                              kyler mosny  19 hours back

                              So sorry for what happend😞😤

                              • annie
                                annie  20 hours back

                                whilst i was watching this i heard banging

                                • Christopher S. Vergara
                                  Christopher S. Vergara  21 hours back

                                  im so blessed that i clicked this vid💖

                                  • Honey Milano
                                    Honey Milano  23 hours back

                                    I’m sorry but the fact that they left cum in a bottle is very rape like and signifies they want you to feel helpless in every way this person would hurt you girl be safe

                                    • aliszja
                                      aliszja  24 hours back

                                      they wanted her to quit youtube, but instead gave her a topic for one of her most popular videos :D i love the irony

                                      • angelidez13
                                        angelidez13  24 hours back

                                        Who TF got away with doing all this, making so much noise, without getting the attention of the neighborhood!?! That's terrible I'm so sorry...if I ever get on YouTube I'll be wearing a hazmat suit and upload at the library, screw this...

                                        • Harmony Sutton
                                          Harmony Sutton  1 days back

                                          Did you find the different letter other than H 🤷🏾‍♀️

                                        • Harmony Sutton
                                          Harmony Sutton  1 days back

                                          Boy if you gonna be a bad person At least dont be stupid and dumb and leave all ur dna in the house

                                          • Hannah Wahl
                                            Hannah Wahl  1 days back

                                            Love these kind of story times. So real! Love this keep it up!! 👍🏼🥳

                                            • ClareMc 44
                                              ClareMc 44  1 days back

                                              Wait...they weren’t convicted?? Bit careless:/

                                              • Jonathan Lovelace
                                                Jonathan Lovelace  1 days back

                                                This is the only good caryn/Karen.

                                                • Roblox Leah
                                                  Roblox Leah  1 days back

                                                  No that's sad :((((

                                                  • Nathalie Cruz
                                                    Nathalie Cruz  1 days back

                                                    I think this is the best video ive ever seen ngl

                                                    • kaira oswal
                                                      kaira oswal  2 days back

                                                      Those 2.9k dislikes are those haters who left 4 gallons of their DNA

                                                      • The Unknown
                                                        The Unknown  2 days back

                                                        Clickbait title...nothing to do with "the dark side of being a youtuber". Just an obnoxious drama queen that pissed some people off. Obviously not a good situation, and I certainly don't condone their behavior, but it's pretty standard high school drama.

                                                        • TherealistViet
                                                          TherealistViet  2 days back

                                                          Subscribe to me guise ❤️

                                                          • Christian Galang
                                                            Christian Galang  2 days back

                                                            i watched the whole video with my eyes fighting with sleep

                                                            • Kristian L
                                                              Kristian L  2 days back

                                                              Those boys should have to pay for the damages they created instead of her mom!!!!

                                                              • Fortune Kookie
                                                                Fortune Kookie  2 days back

                                                                dumbass biatch (the dude)

                                                                • Panda French
                                                                  Panda French  2 days back

                                                                  Wow why would someone do this! I would be so mad if this happened to me.

                                                                  • Krystal L.
                                                                    Krystal L.  2 days back

                                                                    Whyyy would someone leave sperm??? With what intentions oml some people are crazy

                                                                    • Tyler Durden
                                                                      Tyler Durden  3 days back

                                                                      Man you sure did make an egging way more dramatic than it really was.

                                                                      • The Only Waifu
                                                                        The Only Waifu  3 days back

                                                                        Not to sound rude, but if it was "because of you" the house got ruined, why did your mom pay for the damages? I hope you atleast helped

                                                                        • Michael Hinson
                                                                          Michael Hinson  3 days back

                                                                          Sorry to hear about what happened to you! That's really grade school shit right there...

                                                                          • Itss Madiie
                                                                            Itss Madiie  3 days back

                                                                            MY FAMILY BUYS 4 GALLONS OF MILK AT THE SAME TIME 💀💀💀 WE LIKE MILK

                                                                          • Savannah Micelli
                                                                            Savannah Micelli  3 days back

                                                                            Guys it’s okay, they can’t even spell YoTube

                                                                            • annie Shaw
                                                                              annie Shaw  3 days back

                                                                              you know whats crazy she posted this on my birthday

                                                                              • Hannah Sarkisian
                                                                                Hannah Sarkisian  3 days back

                                                                                You remind me of a friend of mine who also has a YouTube channel. She suddenly one by one lost all her old YT friends because of fake rumors, and not ONE had the guts to ask her personally whether it was true or not. People are so fake and hypocritical, it's unbelievable!! She's absolutely GORGEOUS just like you, you're very beautiful, and I guarantee you that AT LEAST 90% of your haters are JEALOUS, and the guys are angry because they can't have you, or they're racist, some are just "sheep" /followers*, and too scared to say anything, they're the bystanders with equally ZERO guts. My friend has even invited haters to call her and TALK about it, but NO ONE called.
                                                                                What does that tell ya!? They're chicken shits. I'm so, so sorry for what happened to you and your family, it's absolutely repulsive. I'm sure you have a lot of friends and family who care about you, but, if not, please tell me if you need a chat/moral/emotional support. Traumatic experiences like that CAN cause PTSD.
                                                                                I've subbed.

                                                                                • Elizabeth Arroyo
                                                                                  Elizabeth Arroyo  3 days back

                                                                                  Oh my God I want to find the dude who did this to you cuz that is hurtful

                                                                                  • Victoria Pavlenko
                                                                                    Victoria Pavlenko  3 days back

                                                                                    Can we take a moment and appreciate how beautiful she is🥰

                                                                                    • Amanda Duffey
                                                                                      Amanda Duffey  3 days back

                                                                                      This vid is the first I've seen on your channel but i think you r a great youtuber and that this vid made millions of people feel better about themselves and what to expect if you want to be a youtuber!👍👌😊✨💖

                                                                                      • Gabby Chavez
                                                                                        Gabby Chavez  4 days back

                                                                                        My teacher: Okay Kids what do u wanna be when I grow up.

                                                                                        *Raises hand*


                                                                                        Me:*I wanna be a YouTuber*

                                                                                        Me:*Watches this video*

                                                                                        • Steve the hair Harrington

                                                                                          Actually the best pep talk at the end tho

                                                                                          • Melanija Lapse
                                                                                            Melanija Lapse  4 days back

                                                                                            im gonna sub to you right now xx i hope everything is okay :)

                                                                                            • Jessica Sntiago
                                                                                              Jessica Sntiago  4 days back

                                                                                              She is so strong dealing with all this. She deserves all the fudging love in the world😅